Edited and excerpted from an earlier post of mine…
Finally I decided to start releasing some political emails, and I got my ass handed to me because someone thought they were fakes. I released a few more, but that still didn’t fix things. I spoke with a reporter about my concerns about my stories and reporting being used without credit, and her response was for me to get over it/tough shit — I guess the Ottawa political reporters stick together no matter what. I’ve spent thousands of dollars of my own money for this research, only to have it used elsewhere without payment, credit, or acknowledgement. I found out all the information first, weeks before anyone else. I worked endless days and nights. And now I know not only the election results, but I know who organized and who paid for the voter suppression, misdirection, and harassment. I knew the identity of the non-story of Pierre Poutine (despite some claims to the contrary), which I wasn’t given due credit for after I revealed it to the media. Now all the reporters want the emails between the financiers of the election fraud, and those in the government who were involved. I can only assume if I turned them over, they’d claim it as their own and I would be unpaid, unappreciated, and purposely forgotten. I’m the only person to have them in my possession short of the Conservative Party opening up their entire document and email database with total transparency. And you know what? With the way I’ve been treated, as the sole source, I don’t think I want to give the media any of it. I could hand over documentation showing how a few prominent Ottawa journalists burned their confidential sources and caused legal problems for those who gave them information in the public interest. (Those emails are just sitting on my hard drive ready to be published.) There’s also hard proof that other national reporters sat on or killed important stories and scandals to curry favour with the Harper Government. That’s exactly how betrayed I feel after making a deal for handing over my research and collaborating in the process, and then being burned myself.
Maybe I’m wrong and those certain actors will own up and give credit where it’s due.
But the way things have gone for me after acting in good faith and abiding by the deals I made, I don’t know why I would just give away my hard work. I’m a researcher, I’m good at what I do, and I’m not going to be anyone’s cheated whore.